Accepting, Willing, Obedient
The other day, Sunday, I visited a church in San Diego up on 47th st. and as I listened to the pastor talk, He said a few things that caught my attention; “to be a Christian you needed to first be accepting of the Gospel of Jesus. Then you need to be Willing to know Jesus as your Lord. And lastly you need to be Obedient to the Word of God as revealed in the Holy Bible. Jesus came to show us the Way and we need to start showing the love of God to others.”
Hmmm, interesting. As I listened I never heard the pastor talk about The ‘Way’ of Jesus as to what it was. I also never heard it said what part of the Word do we begin being obedient to; Nor did he express how we share Gods Love with others. Hoping to hear him teach on these, I sat through the talk he was having with several of his congregation who stayed after the service, to have a casual spiritual talk with the pastor. Questions were asked and answers were given, but sadly no mention on the casual comments made by the pastor.
That irked me because I have been given the gift of Prophesy so as to be able to comfort strengthen and encourage the believers in Christ Jesus with a Word of Understanding. And having come into the fruitful knowledge of the Spirit of God, I have learned that The ‘Way of Jesus, the Love of God and the Word of Our Obedience is all connected and have a definite answer; And if a pastor, preacher, teacher, evangelist OR BELIEVER doesn’t know what it is, then, they are sadly not walking in the Lord Jesus as the Holy Spirit is intended.
When you learn to walk in the Lord Jesus You will learn His ‘Way’ that we are called to walk-in. You will know the “AGAPE-LOVE that you can share with others. But only in accordance to the measure of Faith given to you. And The Word of God that you are Obedient to, are the ones that the Holy Spirit gives you “Remembrance” to, As you Walked in the ‘Way’ of ‘Repentance’[New Testament Way, not Old Testament way.] and Saw with ‘enlightenment’ the Word of ‘Remembrance’ and Acknowledged its Truth as your accepted Truth and you become Obedient to this Word of Truth [In increasing measure until you have fulfilled your personal measure of faith given to each person alive.]. That you strive to be obedient to the entire Word of God isn’t expected and it’s not even possible. If anyone says it is they are just lying. But when you come into the mature Knowledge of God’s Righteousness you will GUARANTEED know your Lord Jesus in the Agape Love of God and your Faith will stand true. Praise God!!! And you will be able to turn from the sins you repent of.
So sure it irked me that this pastor dropped the ball. Happily when the church began to close the morning service I was singled out as a new visitor and greeted. I was also asked if I had any comments. Well YES! (I smile) “The pastor mentioned a few things, such as we need to be obedient, and follow the ‘Way’ of Jesus and show the love of God to others and I would ask what do we be obedient to, What is the Way, and how do we show the love of God to others?”
The answers he gave? Jesus is the Way. Obedience to the Word of God. And show your love through your compassion and concern, show the gifts of the spirit, I.e. be gentle, kind, patient and so on.
Not being the time to enter into a long discourse of the dialog given above, I waited outside for a chance to speak to the pastor alone. It didn’t workout… he thought that it was a matter of nuts and bolts you don’t talk to them as mature Christians because they need to be saved then they can study the Word and learn how to be obedient to it. Ohhboy…
Listen folks: I grew up hearing this kind of drivel from pastors sermons, and I took it all in, just like you. Some was good, some was nonsense because it didn’t make any sense; and I would accept the norm, but couldn’t believe them until proven different. That’s what happened…I was given the gift of Prophesy and 37 years later the Light went on and I was set free from the sin I didn’t want to do. I was lucky, the Bible gives us about a 40 year period to learn it. I learned the ‘Way’ of Jesus and How to walk it in perpetual repentance and in increasing Agape Love. And I’M here to tell you It’s a Great feeling that stands strong in faith because the Bible teaches the Truth and IT’S Provable! Knowledge is “Transferable”!!!
The Holy Spirit is given to the True Repentant, even years before you find you have witnessed maturity in your faith; for Jesus stands revealed in our Mind and the Love of God is my Hearts witness to the revealed Truth that was found in repentance and revealed in a new spirit of understanding, Or for those not yet born again in the Holy Spirit, and desiring to turn from the sinfulness of your soul and wounded in Mind to turn from the cheek of God and hide in shame; There is no sin seen by you that is seen by God except the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.
If that was you then, listen in…Any person who ‘Chooses’ to Walk the Way of Love found in Walking the Way of Repentance with the assist of Holy Spirit given ‘Remembrances’ of the Written Word of God, that are personally experienced, Acknowledged, Submitted to, and ‘Abided’ in until the Joy and Transformation of our individual Mind’s becoming One with the Mind of Christ Jesus allows us to live free from the soul that was mine at birth and now in control of The Holy Spirit given New Soul in Christ Jesus enjoying my walk thru life in the Love of God. It happens and it is a given: “Repent and be Baptized in the Holy Spirit.” And when you are sincere in your choice to be true and loving, God our Father WILL know it and grant you the Holy Spirit; or if you are already born of the Spirit then your personal growth in the knowledge of Gods Righteousness will grow and the love of God that is given to all at the point of Salvation is revealed again, in measure.
In time soon to pass whether I live or die in my flesh I will either be an eternal Soul of a transformed flesh in the blink of an eye, or resurrected a perfect spirit with whatever form it is in its natural state of Glory in The Father through The Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.
And in this life…I live to share the Love of our common Father and the Truth of Jesus in words you can understand. May the Lord be with you. Oh! By the way if you go to this church stand warned there are bedbugs in the seats in the back.
My name is J.J. and I have the gift of prophecy; and with it I share the teaching of Jesus that the Bible tells us in Isaiah 30:20-26 that the true teachers that have been hidden will now show the world The teaching called the ‘Way’. This is the fruit in the faith, that your work in the faith should become mature in and knowing of; the ‘Way’ of Jesus.
I write to the popular preachers that are seen on Television, because they are the teachers of the Gospel that are seen by most, and I tell them their short comings in the message’s they share.
Joyce Meyers, Andy Wommack, Joel Olsteen, Jimmy Swaggert, James Robison, and others; I share the ‘Way’ with them and show them the error of their way being taught. Most of them don’t pay me any mind, some try to discredit me as false teacher trying to become popular on the hem of their own popularity, some write and invite me to be their friend on face book. But then they ignore my word of knowledge, and don’t accept it.
Such a letter has been written to Joyce Meyers. It’s clear she wants to teach her listeners to change but rather than show the ‘Way’ of Jesus she uses her own understanding that has not yet matured to see and teach the Truth of the ‘Way’ of Jesus.
That letter is below. Please feel free to read it and see the sharing of the ‘Way’ and how I caution her in her own way of teaching. Judge for yourself, am I being overbearing? Am I being false?
The bible warns of the spiritual leaders being closed-minded and those whom haven’t heard of Jesus will be the ones who see him. The teachers will reject this message, while those whom haven’t heard the Truth will be acceptable of the message. So please read it and decide for yourself. And if you find it acceptable perhaps you will want to read other articles of sharing I have on my blog site worksbyjjchristianblogs.wordpress.com
Dear Joyce Meyers,
You are telling your congregations to reject the sin in their life and stop their addictions; but you are telling them to change by being led by the Holy Ghost. In essence telling them to recognize their weaknesses and disavow them and walk in the spirit of God’s Love.
That God loves us and we should believe that God’s Love is forever; be thankful. Not feeling guilty but repenting. Saying with sincerity that you want to stop that sin. On and on you talk, telling little stories of personality frailties’ and show the many sarcasms of life.
Always telling your listeners to believe in their self value in Christ, and be the loving Christian that you are in Christ.
Okay, I get it. You know about our need for change and learning how to walk in the Spirit of God’s Love. BUT!!! You are not showing your congregation the Bibles “Hidden Wisdom” that reveals the Way HOW we walk in the Spirit. Nor are you teaching according to “The Way” of Christ Jesus; that makes it all possible. Listen for a moment:
Jesus told his disciples that he was going his way to the Father and that where he goes they can follow. But his disciples said where are you going we don’t know the way to follow. And Jesus said in John 14: 23-26niv :
“…the counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.”niv
“…But the comforter, the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.”kjv
We read the New Testament. The King James Bible or The NIV Then as we walk in the Way of Repentance and as we find the Truth to our desire for any particular sin, The Holy Spirit will bring the written Word that you have read, in ‘remembrance’ and the Truth will be seen and now known and then, we are to Acknowledge that Truth, and Submit to the Loving Alternative that we have Understood in Truth, and Known with our Heart. And if we ‘Abide’ in that Way of revealed Love that is tied to the Knowledge of the Truth we have seen and Acknowledged in our repentance, we will become ‘Transformed by the renewing of our mind.’ Not our mind but now one with the Lord Jesus’ Mind.
You see the heart is our witness to the Holy Spirit because of The Love of God we experience in our repentance. We experience it at our salvation and we experience it in our daily walk in ‘The Way of God’s Love…found in the acknowledged Truth of the written Word of God, submitted to as our way to walk in all situations that the Knowledge of God’s Righteousness gives merit to, and as I abide in ‘Him’ he will abide in me and our Joy will be complete.
The knowledge that sin prevented me from seeing was that all of my desires were tainted by the desire for fulfilling a Riches, Worries and/Or Pleasures and through my actions that sinned in the pursuit of these sinful desires I handed out hurtful afflictions.
And yet my heart wanted to know love and my mind wanted to know a faith more tangible than … “just believe…you can’t see Jesus but you believe by faith…” I needed more!!!
You don’t understand, I’m the original Richie Cunningham. He acted it… I lived it. I was popular but never found my thrill on blueberry hill…hmm….when in an accident I was given a compound fracture of my arm and spent four days in a hospital. There, I had my thrill given to me in fear, and my innocence was taken from me by a molesting nurses helper, and confusion entered my life.
When I fell I fell hard and I hated my new-found weakness that made me hurt others by passing that confusion on in my criminal life that resulted. Pain and fear and immorality can and is passed on to us by someone who was most likely a victim themselves before becoming corrupted by the confusion of their mind.
Like I said I NEEDED MORE. I couldn’t explain my mind. And it was only by walking in the Way of Jesus, in The special way of repentance that gets spiritual ‘remembrances’ and understanding in the Way of Love being a choice found in the memories and actions of the sinner that I didn’t want to be; that I found my sanity.
In my need I have experienced many blessings along the way. The most valuable blessing was to find that in repentance, the life I lived from personal experience, was the means to find the Truth and Love of God, where, by my choice to live in the truth I found an increasing measure of the Love of God become one with me in Jesus.
In verse we read that Jesus reveals to us the Love of God, John 17:25,26 and because we can’t see Jesus we can know he is present when we feel the Love of God. Luke 10:22
And because Faith expresses itself through God’s Love -Galatians 5:6niv we can now draw a line from evidence of things unseen, Jesus; now (love- revealed) through the truth found in Jesus, to the substance (of that same Love) that gives us hope, Love never fails.
Now Our Faith has a reason for being! love increases with the choosing. But let the choosing be from the acknowledgment of truth found in the proper repentance to your desires for sin. Trying to imagine God’s Love as our reason for belief or faith, as you have been mistakenly teaching, relying on us to fathom the unfathomable riches of God’s Love towards us, and then feel grateful and start acting like Christians, is just pure malarkey. That isn’t’ the Way of Jesus. So please stop that kind of teaching and start teaching the Way of Repentance that finds the truth of our desires and gives us a choice to choose to submit to, to the loving alternative that does no harm, and grow to know the Love of God that applies to everyone equally, in increasing measure. II Peter 1:3-11
After they have abided in the love found in the truth they will be transformed in that same increasing measure according to the measure of faith given them. This is the fulfillment of the verse that says: “the hour cometh and now is when all who worship the Father, worship him in spirit and truth.”
The teaching of the Way of Jesus is self proven in our walk. Yet if we begin to teach early and the Way has been lost along the wayside, then we need to see the truth, verse by verse and we need to acknowledge the love of God we Have learned to see in truth, and thank Jesus who makes it possible to understand and thanks to God who makes our heart the witness of his Love.
Thus our faith is established and the family of God is revealed.
God be with you Joyce.
Love in Him,
I call you friends because the Bible says ‘your friends will hear your voice.’ And I know that the reason of these scriptures will be seen by you whom is my friend. I hope you will join me in my worship of the Lord Jesus, my God and savior and friend; and The Father from which he came.
“A friend is a friend before you ever meet them.” by J.J.
Love in Him,
Hello again, world…
Walking in the Way of Jesus gives us the warmth of God’s love to share with others. With this knowledge of God’s Righteousness to be the Truth in/of Jesus, whom we have acknowledged in The Word, as we have read it in the New Testament Bible.
Allows us to hold our head up in the grace of expressions. Born of a caring heart that sees you as a person living life as you have fashioned it to fit your comfort zone; and I hope to see that you know Jesus by the gift of His Holy Spirit.
I try to see what the title is, of the book you are reading. I’m interested in seeing if you are reading for enlightenment or pleasure. I wonder if you are interested in knowing Jesus in the Way he taught his disciples. How, as you walk in the Way, you can know His Truth and His, and Our Heavenly Father’s Love. Through Him.
I try to reach out to the world through my blogs, written to share the understanding of God’s “Hidden Wisdom”. The Way of God’s Love can only be found if you walk in the Way of Repentance. NOT !!! as if you were turning away from your sin 180° . NOT !!! As a rebuke to sins temptation in the Name of the Lord Jesus. Not in ANY churches teaching. They don’t know the Way of Jesus either. The church, mainly the Catholic church and any of the Protestant churches that broke away from the church universal. You both have been around for close on two thousand years, tho it may have taken a lot of those years to brake away from the Catholic Church and its Pope.
But, the point is neither one of you is going around telling people to walk in the Way of Jesus. You talk about him, you share his Word,(One of Your redeeming virtues) and you teach us to believe by a blind faith; and call out for new converts.(your only other virtue.) You Teach A Faith that claims to be believing in what you can not see, and offer no proof that he exists other than the occasional “Born-Again” individual.
Yet the end-time prophesy of Isaiah 30:20-26 says: “…and thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the Way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.”
Move over churches, the Church of Christ has been revealed. It’s not a building, and it doesn’t teach a blind faith. And it doesn’t teach Old Testament repentance.
In the churches, repentance is over looked in its importance, yet to Jesus it was important enough to change the word: metanoia, which is how the word repentance is used in the Old Testament, but in the New Testament, the word: metanoeo is given and it means: to reconsider your sins in the thought, will and emotions of Jesus and submit to putting off the old way and putting on the New Way, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.
How that is done is given several verses that tell us that our sins are motivated by the desires we like to fulfill. These are worries, riches, and/or pleasures. And they bring harm to someone. Harm can be mental or physical, and we need to see this truth and that we can choose to change and walk in a revealed Way of Love. A Way that does no harm to its neighbor and everyone can do it beginning with ME!!! If you must have it, whatever it is you desire, then at least strive to find the Way to have it that doesn’t hurt anyone…including yourself.
Abide in that Love and Truth as you continue to walk in the Way of this repentance, and the measure of love you will come to know is the measure God gave you in your faith. If you are diligent in your walking in the Way of Jesus a summation of : Repentance that says:
“But foolish and unlearned questions avoid, knowing that they do gender strifes. And the servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle unto all, apt to teach, patient, In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the Truth; And they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will.” 2nd Tim.2:23-26KJV
Are you ready to fight for your freedom from the snare of the way of the world, it’s perversions of Truth saying it is hateful to certain of them, a significant portion of a voting society, so much that it is to them a crime and needs to be silent in the pulpit. You believe a person has a right to believe in what ever they choose, but realize some choices are rational, some choices have consequences that effect our health and welfare. And I stand behind that, you have the right to do whatever you want to do, and suffer the consequences; as do I.
Further I believe you have the right to believe whatever you want to believe and live accordingly and suffer the consequences accordingly also. We all do. But we don’t have a right to silence the freedom of speech and belief of others just because it sounds condemning.
Well, wake up, it is!! Look at the status of the nations in the world and see that the wars are the clashes of The Word of God believed by differences of belief. Allah – God is One yet when he said “I AM.” Post-Jesus was created. From the substance of eternity that is of God Our Father. The Word God is light andLove,And it is Truth. Jesus was the embodiment of The Truth that is Light and Life. And in that embodiment post-Jesus, God ‘I AM’: called into being the heavens and the earths with Joy and Delightment experienced by both post-Jesus and all that is of God the Father; who willingly brings to creation within himself, the spoken Word, spoken in Love and Truth.
A day was as a thousand years, and a thousand years were as a day. Creation was all for the future sons and daughters of God who would inherit eternal life with the Lord God The Word Jesus.
Through our belief in Jesus who fulfilled all of the prophecies written of him, through his sacrificial death for all of US natural born sinners, our being separated from the glories of God The Father of all, by the entering in of sin, instigated by a too proud angel, who thought if he could corrupt all that was created perfect, he could become master over God the Father. Thus we are natural born sinners, separated from God because of a greedy angel. Through all of that, we are saved.
Man’s introduction of sin into the garden of Eden caused the Tree of Life to be taken from us or we might eat from it and become an immortal sinner, this, was more than God would allow.
The death of all nature and living thing was determined and resulting, from the sin of man caused by the proud antics of a dumb angel who egged them on. Too proud to see beyond his own nose.
It wasn’t anything new to God, who often walked with Adam and Eve, to see that, at some time Sin was going to happen. Though once given in to sin; a natural rebellion would occur, we are but children and tantrums happen. Resistance happens. But woe to him through which sin is induced. And all of the fallen angels with him now are used to teach us…the fallen, yet those created in God’s Image; how to get so caught up in sin so that it chokes us and makes us search for the love and truth found in Jesus. Tho’ we think we are looking for our own answers, But Because we were built to know the Love of God in Truth and sin doesn’t want us to know it… WE can know something is missing in the sin filled life we have been living. And the whole world is warring to live according to their chosen beliefs.
They have a right to do so just as we do. But when any belief is seen to endorse Harm to our neighbor then those of us that are able to see that Jesus was a man of peace and love and denied even the strongest of instinct’s desire to survive at all cost. His exemplary life fulfilled it’s course and the devil angel lucifer broke every law in the book to condemn an innocent man to death.
Every prophesy that was given about the Messiah was fulfilled in Jesus and his prophesied resurrection from the dead to live in eternity in heaven, did happen, and where God the Father rules through the Son, all of us, who want to live with the one true God and his only begotten, look to the man-God Jesus, who became a man to pay the only price that would suffice; the giving of his own life, as a sacrifice, for once and for all, for all time. Our belief in Jesus as Lord God and Savoir from the dark world of sin, is proven in your proper Repentance.
Read that again: Our belief in Jesus as Lord and Savoir from the dark world of sin, IS PROVEN in your proper Repentance.
Have you ever seen a teen movie where the shows main stars are the athletic hunk and the prettiest cheerleader? The movie goes on and at some point we get introduced to the friends of the Jock and the Cheerleader. And then the prom comes and the jock’s best friend and school lesson helper, the nerd, is needing a date to the prom and helps in the decorations. So the jock asks his girlfriend to find his friend a date. The pretty cheerleader asks one of her friends for a favor and as a favor she goes to the prom and meets the nerd who’s to be her date.
At first she dislikes him because she doesn’t want to be seen with the nerd and cause the possible alienation of a future date more appealing to her tastes. My God! He may be at this very prom!! (I smile)The nerd is shy, bashful, scared of rejection and doesn’t know how to have a conversation with a girl he knows. Lack of experience, fearful, shy; but he tries to catch her interest and sees her admiring the decorations that he made and when he lets her know he made them, she is startled. To think she was liking, and that she admired something that was made by the nerd.
It was enough for her to ‘reconsider’ her chosen ‘Attitude’ towards the nerd.. “what did you say your name is?
She then reassess her opinion of the nerd, who can’t be all nerd because he was good at making decorations that she liked; and so she changes her attitude and choose to be a bit of a friend to him. (“A friend is a friend, before you ever meet them.” WorksbyJ.J.)And the unpleasant experience of a moment before is gone and a new atmosphere has been created. Feelings are charged, pleasure is found in an understanding that is agreeable and Loving(Agape). Growth in maturity is incrementally increased and increasingly known First-Hand.
We walk in that pleasant zone of increased love and understanding in the Way of Jesus. For it is the Truth that we found when we searched ourselves for the reason for our sin.
Yes! Her sin was directed towards the friend of her girlfriends boy friend, and a hurtful attitude was borne.
Wrong thinking and wrong acting caused this girl to live in depression, and un-happy, which is to say No-Joy! She doesn’t yet know that the Truth of Jesus was found when she ‘suddenly’ realized that she was liking the decorations, which clashed with her ‘Chosen- Attitude’ of how she made herself feel about this blind date favor. Should she continue in this repentance, and begin to acknowledge the Written Word of Truth that is “spiritually given in ‘Remembrance’”; then you will know the Way of Jesus.
We, (who) are on the path to becoming more and more like him to the fullness of our measure, know that the time comes, when we who know the salvation of Christ Jesus will be given to know Him Fully, even as we will become fully known in Him, and our Perfect Spirit of Christ Jesus is given a manifested transformation of a Perfect Body, in the blink of an eye, and the memories of the fallen nature is removed from our sight and mind. Then we will begin an eternity of living with God as one with Him through Jesus who is our redeeming virtue by choice.
All life is based in the relationships of who you choose to live in. Sin leads to death and is death for all who reject the salvation offered to us in Christ Jesus. The sooner you accept Jesus as the Loving and Truthful God of all creation and trust in his resurrection from the dead to Reign in Heaven; the sooner you can start walking in the Way of Jesus, and grow wise.
For all of life to be so dependant on whom you choose to relate to and choose to be one with, simply means it must be true; And it is true, ( it is self-proven that love and truth increase with the choosing in acknowledged Truth in Repentance,) then, your choice in life becomes clear and your end position is in your hands. Choose wisely, grasshopper!
Love, In Him,
Life. Some say life with, or life without…
Either Way you choose, rest assured that it is indeed Your Choice to do with Or without.
Life when I was growing up was good. Being a natural red head gives me a specialty that only another red knows. ‘Rather be dead than red on the head.’ ‘Freckle-faced strawberry.’ But on the other hand I heard, ‘what did you do eat a ten dollar bill and break out in pennies?’ and receive a fifty cent piece. And all of us red heads with freckles, know that the freckles are really Angel kisses.
It has it’s drawbacks tho’, in my early teens it’s ‘the tall dark and handsome’ that gets the girl friend. Me? Best friend; brotherly love, happy-go-lucky. Even when I got molested by an old nurses aid, and the hell it put me through, I’d still say that life was good. The day is fine and seeing a smile on others is a good feeling. I learned to be sociable in my conversations. I also learned to have a complex.
One doesn’t think about their life much while growing up; most things were taken for granted. School, playing sports, exploring a jungle paradise, trying new foods. A home, mom and dad, brothers and sisters, friends and relatives. We all have them, we all experience them.
Yet as we live we choose to do a lot of things without much thought for them other than the excitement of something new, strange, or sexy. Of course looking at those old playing cards of my dad’s that had pictures of buxom ladies had interest too. I was in the second grade. The curiosity of sex was just that Curious not lustful. As I got older when I did take an interest in girls, I was already afraid of rejection and naïve. And yet I was still innocent at the time I got molested.
My mom was very proper, my dad was a Lech. I’m not sure who’s idea it was to take us to church; but once, I got sick having to stand up for so long at the church. I barfed in the bushes when I got outside, I got spanked for it. And tho’ my dad cheated on my mom he stayed with her till death did they part. I’m thinking it was mom who was the religious one.
I was industrious as a young boy. With a T.V. Guide route, a paper route, I sold seeds, greeting cards, and Grit door to door. I mowed lawns, and held marble carnivals. My brother and I were marbles champions when we were living in Puerto Rico.
For most, I believe, 14 years of age is still young but pretty well set up in life as to what their future will be like. I’m talking Roots. It’s been said ‘that a child learns about 80% of all its going to learn by the time it’s three years old. So for most fourteen year olds, how they will settle down is fairly certain to be rooted. But for me, it wasn’t.
I was an Air Force brat and lived in more places and experienced meeting more people, more friends and more heartbreak. By the time I was 16 I had lived in California, New Mexico, Puerto Rico, Washington State, Florida, Iowa, and Texas.
I had no roots except in the ability to make new friends, lose friends, never a girl friend, to much fear of being rejected, ridiculed as a red headed freckle-faced strawberry, too much fear of liking someone as more than, ‘just a friend.’ Not even knowing what to say to get a girl-friend.
I played Sports some. I played minor league baseball, and in the 9th grade I joined the swimming, track, football, and basketball teams. Only, Because I missed footballs summer practice, having just moved and joined school a day late, I was put on the 7th string and only played in one game. The only one we won. (smile) And as life would have it, I broke my arm a couple days later and didn’t make the basketball team except as a bag-boy, at the coaches urging.
But when I broke my arm in a compound fracture needing surgery and a four day stay in the hospital; it was there where, when I woke up from the anesthesia to the utter fear of being molested by an old nurse.
I’m 59 Now and know that, because of that molesting, I lived a life of prison after prison, state hospital after state hospital. I made a life time of choices to be an exhibitionist. I didn’t ask for it but after that hospital stay I was given that problem to deal with. I didn’t know how but I was as stubborn as my dad, who when I gave him some fun blocks to reassemble: studied, contemplated and persevered even to making 3-D drawings of each block and the colors of all six sides of five blocks, until he succeeded in reassembling. I believed in Jesus and according to the church, I ‘Didn’t become a catholic. (humorous sarcasmJ ) I say I’m a Christian.
But remember, I’m in my youth…I may say I believe in Jesus but what do I know? I know manners, I know stubbornness, I know good from bad. My hero’s were superman, flash, Or T.V hero’s. Rin tin tin, The Lone Ranger, The wild wild west, I was sociable but tainted, as ‘Twain would say.
I had no one outside of a prison Dr. or a state hospital social worker, or psych. Tech., or Psych. Dr. to talk to about my mixed up life. I would enjoy helping someone. I would fight in defense of others. I wasn’t emotion-able but felt deeply about life. I believed in Jesus and have had miracles happen to me. I would change a woman’s tire just as easily would I open a door for her, but talk to?? I wouldn’t know how. Anyway I was too afraid to try. And in the world of confusion I grew up in, I was a likely candidate for having a traumatic experience jolt me into becoming someone I hated.
I look back now and I can see how all of my life co-exists with-in all of my memories; And the choices that I made, how they tied together yet struggled for direction. I would pray to my Father God and his Son Jesus to help me understand and be set free from this burden of sin. I’d know it was from the time I was molested; all of my life before then was innocent, naive, inexperienced. Everything after full of pain and suffering and confusion. My fear to progress to schizophrenia, border-line institutionalism, depression, self-loathing and chronic exhibitionism.
Of memorable interest are times that stand clear in memory. All of those experiences that show that character even tho’ ’tainted’ can still come through. The miracles that happened in my life to keep me believing in Jesus, even tho’ my faith was blind.
I heard it a lot, ‘you don’t act like someone who’s been in prison.’ especially in my last term. But it was in my last term in prison that I was able to make sense of it all, the Bible finely made sense and I found my freedom in Christ Jesus. Thus in prophesy was I given my understanding.
No I did not find Jesus and get saved and live happily ever after. Well maybe happy ever after. (smile)
In 1979, I was 25 yrs old and doing time in my last State Hospital. My fifth…. Patton State hosp. (twice), Metropolitan State hosp. (once), Camarillo State hosp. (once), and Big Springs State hosp. But it was in that last time that I experienced being born-again.
That was 6 yrs. After my first prison term in Texas. Yet after 1979, about 6 months later, I received the gift of prophesy. From 1980 on I was to start learning the ‘Hidden Wisdom’ of the ‘Way’ taught by Jesus and his Apostles and Paul. And with insightful ‘remembrances’ of the Truth in Jesus given by the Holy Spirit.
In 2006, while doing the last days of my last prison term, (my eighth), the message of prophesy was finished with the acknowledgement of the ‘Way’ of Jesus, which was now known to me. And I was able to put off the final clutches of the burden given to me those many years ago.
So you see it’s all a matter of choices. And Time to work with what we are given to work with, whether they be morals, manners, misunderstood beliefs, roots or no roots. Jesus or no Jesus.
Knowing all of this, I am saddened by all of the misery in the lives of others, and wish they knew Jesus in a personal relationship. I can’t imagine what hell would have been like if I had not believed in Jesus long enough to learn to Really Believe in him.
But I’ve seen it! I saw the hate of satan first-hand. I experienced his confusion and pain. Without Jesus we really are: ’The walking dead.’
Now, in today’s life, I notice that a lot of younger people don’t believe in Jesus. Maybe you are one of them and are reading this because you are curious. Or maybe you are a believer still trying to find a reason to believe, and are hoping that I can help you with finding faith in truth.
Whatever your reason for reading this I can only guess. I don’t know where you stand in the journey we call life. But I do know this: there is a way! It’s not your way, but it’s Jesus’ Way.
You can read of it here: ‘The Way’
To see how God helps read this: ‘Spiritual Strength’
And this: ‘Understanding is in the heart’
And for other choices for reading: http://worksbyjjchristianblogs.wordpress.com
It is hoped that you who are knowing that you need some love in your life, will make the earnest effort to find the Truth in Jesus and the Love of God. The teaching is easy. It’s repentance in every thought, will and emotion we have, to find the very thought, will and emotion we can have in God himself through Jesus. What a great feeling it is. It has feeling and it has knowledge. And you can never lose it as it is the very spirit of God that has been given to you when you were born-again, and Jesus says that not one that has been given to him has been lost; and if you haven’t been born-again yet, believe me you will know it if it happens to you. Don’t worry, just follow the teaching of the Way, continue in the reading of the New Testament, and you will find God’s love at the moment he gives it to you for your finding the truth of why you sin. Make the effort!
Brothers and Sisters, we are in Christ, but if you refuse to repent to knowing the Love and Truth of God, then I can only say, Jesus is real. He and God the Father are one, and they both Love you without any blame.
If you don’t believe this and don’t think you need to repent to know God’s Love or his Truth, then, listen close…
The time is here when this teaching of the ‘Way’ is now revealed so that we can turn away from the way of satan, giving in to every desire of worry, riches and/or pleasure with a lust for more. Feeling no shame for our morbid shame. Embracing the worries, riches and or pleasures, this life has to offer. And all of its harm experienced. May God have mercy on us all…both victims and perps.
And soon, very soon- we will begin to enter into the times of tribulation; a time that lasts about 37 months and kills 13 times the population of America, world-wide. In famine, floods, earthquakes, disease, and murder. A time so terrible that none would survive if God didn’t shorten the days.
If you find yourself then, wishing things were how they are now, when only hardship and death is certain; I hope you remember Jesus and ask him to help you.